Home at Sea

posted on: 4.14.2015

After college, even so during, your sense of home is jarred. There's the home you came from and the home you live in, but you can never quite be sure which is truer. In a way, you are perpetually straddling the home of your past and present self. The past being the one that molded, created you, but that person's existence is finite. Then there is the present. The version of self constantly questioning, riding a foggy road where all that is visible is your current position and perhaps your immediate past.  The now you is so less stable, and always a bit lost. Yet day after day you press forward into that fog slowly clearing out new road, until that starting point becomes increasingly unclear, eventually equal to the unforeseeable future. Our past self grows older, wiser, as the road behind creeps into the road yet traveled. But if we can not go back, how may we revisit that old sense of self? Can that fearing yet breathing version of you ever meet the seasoned yet fading past being?

I know so. Now for a pop culture reference. Do you remember the film Inception? Of course you do. In the movie this song always brings Leo back to reality but by way of connecting him to the memories of his late wife. A consistency spanning across past and present. Well I think we all have that token. Someone, somewhere, something that allows us to forgo all the noise and revisit our true self. In other words, forget the journey, the vision of past, the hope of the future and embrace that road. The spine of your life, the thing that follows you beginning to end, even if only as an idea. For me...that is the sea. I can always visit the ocean, gaze into the horizon line, and be put in a state of hypnosis by the rolling waves and there I am, I am me. I am home.

Do you have a token of self? A place of thing that always brings you peace? If so, do tell :).

25 comments:

  1. Sometimes it 's food or a certain smell of trees but yes it's the ocean too. And sunscreen :)

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  2. This looks like home for me too from growing up by the beach! I would never be able to move away from the water!

    <3 Shannon
    Upbeat Soles

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  3. Gorgeous photos! I love the passage you wrote here as well. After college, I have called so many places home and now I am never really sure where to call home, as it always seems to change! Perfect pictures!

    Denise | Fashion Love Letters

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  4. Very well said. I love the captured photos. You're really great <3

    Have a great day!

    xoxo,
    SHAIRA
    www.missdream-girl.blogspot.com

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  5. This was so beautifully written. I don't really know what or where my token self is or has gone. I've been so overwhelmed and all over the place I've really lost a sense of the real me-again. I feel like to find it I need to travel, because traveling (if your heart is open) really opens your eyes and ears to what is inside and who you are etc. And I think I keep using the same excuses, waiting for the same circumstances and experiences to find myself and find that spark again. I need to stop waiting for that plane ride or adventure because even though it would be completely liberating and enlightening it probably won't give me exactly what I'm looking for either. I'd like to think I can change, but humans and change are opposing forces at times and I'll no doubt continue waiting for that moment I can get away.

    Sxx
    www.daringcoco.com

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  6. Wow, it is just so pretty! I miss that ocean-- Indonesia spoiled me!
    Melanie @ meandmr.com

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  7. Loved this way too much. For us, there's something about certain smells that always bring us back.

    xx 365Hangers

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  8. Beautiful post! I never had a strong sense of "home" as I don't have a double (soon triple) nationality and I've been living sort of a gipsy life ever since I left home at the age of 19, but I hope I will have a place I will really be able to call Home one day :)

    Bella Pummarola

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  9. Such a beautiful post. And yes, I have my happy place - in fact, a few, for different reasons and for different occasions. x

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  10. It's definitely the sound the of the ocean for me. Even though I've grown up in three different cities, the ocean has always been close by :)

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  11. I really enjoyed reading this post, and the photos are absolutely beautiful! My place of peace has always been high up in the mountains where its just so quiet and calming...definitely home to me. :)

    http://ourruins.com

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  12. Beautiful pics! Of course I remember the movie Inception. A token of self... maybe some songs in my music collection.

    www.LUXESSED.com

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  13. Beautiful post Michaela. It seems we have a deep love of the ocean in common. I always feel at peace when Im near the water. Maybe it's because I spent most of my childhood in Monterey or because that's where I feel the calmest and closest to God. Hope you're enjoying your week!

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  14. This is so serene and relaxing
    Love it
    XO

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  15. Such a calming and thoughtful post, thoroughly enjoyed reading this lovely. Whenever I feel lost, being with my family makes me feel much more "me" :)

    Elle
    www.theellenextdoor.com
    xx

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  16. First of all, this is beautifully written. Secondly, I've no idea what my token of self is... The sarcastic ass in me wants to say, "My Visa card" but obviously that's not true.

    I love yours is the sea!

    -Ashley
    Le Stylo Rouge

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  17. Wow... so beautiful photographs! Love your way of seeing the world!
    I love to clear my mind at the Balaton, that's eastern europe's biggest sea, located in Hungary.
    We call it the Hungarian ocean, since we are not close to the sea. Kisses xo

    Csenge | Csenge's Point

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  18. For me it was the home I came from, I missed it like crazy and regretted ever leaving, hence moving back 8 months ago:). I stand firmly by there is nowhere like the PNW and Seattle on a sunny day!

    xx Cara
    www.carascliche.com

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  19. I've recently discovered your blog and I really like it! I'm following you now on Bloglovin'
    Hope you'll like mine too!

    XO,
    Taria-ann
    www.frunettte.com

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  20. I always love your writing! I guess my token would just be being in Seattle hehe (I know kinda lame right?). But I always realize how much I love this city when I'm traveling to other places! I agree that the sea is also peaceful and it's a great place to reflect!

    Tina
    www.justatinabit.com

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  21. aw now I see what inspiring you! Beautiful post Michaela!
    xx
    cvetybaby.com

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  22. Love it!

    Kisses.
    www.NataliaBosch.com

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